sober creative nurturance

1. it’s important to go fallow sometimes
   to be in the pause
   to rest and recalibrate to a new way of being
   
   recent months of becoming crone
   the elder in the household
   one of the wise ones riding menopausal waves
   
2. do you know your ideal mothering traits?
   mine include patience, nudging to take risks, silence-breaking
   i’ve learned how to give myself these…
   
   as a child there were powerful creative women drowning in alcohol
   unable to set boundaries, to speak for what they needed
   to follow their heart’s desire
   
   running in the woods, swimming in the lake, dreaming with clouds
   these pockets of joy in an atmosphere of divorce, drinking and chronic doing
   cigarettes and cigars the playmates of my parents
   
   they provided what they could, coated in layers of fear
   i wanted to be able to make a mess, to be creative, to care less
   but i was told to be tidy, to clean up after others, to be safe
   
   
3. i was afraid
   i was locked up inside
   dwelling in an overactive mind
   
   excelling at academics
   earning scholarships and praise all-the-while
   drinking alcoholically & seeding depression
   
   my maternal grandmother drank to death
   her liver failed her due to scarring and cirrhosis
   she died on mother’s day when i was 14
   
   i found recovery from my own disease 
   of drinking alcoholically
   nearly a decade later
   
   it runs in the family roots, my, mom, too
   danced dangerously with drink
   sober or not, i know not which, she died alone
   
4. today i reflect
   on the gifts of being 
   a sober creative woman of integrity
   
   mothering two amazing children
   loving a hubby who just lost his parents
   bearing witness to the hardest year of his life
   
   menopause brings me closer to truth
   direct connect with the Divine
   Mother Earth guides me and is nudging me 

5. i’m writing more
i’m pausing more, painting more, paddling more
i’m offering more time in serving my clients

revive and reveal
our true nature

live an extraordinary life

no matter your past, trauma can thaw
love yourself as your own nurturing creative mother
and enjoy relational health with Self, Other, Spirit

sending you virtual hugs and creative blessings







Amy Elizabeth (a good enough mother)

Amy Elizabeth Gordon, M.A.
Survivor & Thriver & Giver & Receiver
call/email for a nudge for greater relational health

passionately guiding couples and families
Serving Hawai’i Island and beyond
in-person or on-line

2-6 day retreats available now
5 openings through July
808-936-3733